Good and bad and good and bad news

Edward, Although it has been made to be normalized and there have been times I have had no choice to give in, I am still mad that you haven't literally called me and talked to me. The good and bad of the Kaiser Chiefs and the God complex that comes with it. When the Kaiser Chiefs should understand to let go of making giants out of themselves to talk to their wanted through the wanted's small window in a skyscraper. How bigger he is than the skyscraper just besides the window. I hate structure too, but does some (real reverse structures) have to be so ridiculous or extreme about communication? This is how I smell a man's intimidation or fear. Maybe I am being manipulative because I just can't seem to find a more effective way of coming across to you.......... The thought of "The Police," though was sweet. The song just can't grow old. It'd be a shame if you did abuse the song too much and make it grow old for the literal time that won't be spent. Don't know whether that statement was good or bad. The good news is I am happy that you are somewhat here, but I'm not necessarily laying my life down. Another good news is, I remember the time you kissed me in the car when we were at the stoplight and I can guess what that was about. You know you know you have a good idea of what I want (bashfully agreeing I want my own Carlos). You knew my sincere freeness and you knew you didn't have to give me money for my sincere affection. You appreciated my appreciation. xoxo............ The bad.......... Your unfairness. I did notice the way you questioned and/or accused me with some specific people or things. Edward, you really are classified as a new one. No matter how much structure some men have together, I can make my own choices any time that I want to of ignoring, overlooking, or acknowledging anything that I want to. Your persistence does show some integrity that: you don't know some things about me. I'm not sure if you understand which threat you do bring with some persistence. Maybe you are pure in heart and really have some kind of possessiveness or jealousy where you do not like the idea or want me to be a swinger as either a straight or bisexual slut. Maybe this is about pushing me to compromise where you do want me to be a bisexual swinger for your own self-seeking. You want me to give up on my green eggs and ham fit and say that every woman won and I never denied any woman. I will not compromise. I do consider some women to be my nigger rapists. I consider some men in being nigger rapists as well. My mind has been made up with green eggs and ham. Although some very rapist violent and piggish men want to argue tooth and nail with it and lie about my truth; there are still differences between being raped/robbed vs. me being the one to seriously give in, and accepting anyone and everyone's green eggs and ham. Edward, you already made the choice to not call me at all. Not even on Christmas. Not even on my birthday. I did take it as maybe I really just am a one night stand. The truth is, I still miss you and do want you to make literal effort and action to keep in touch in a normal way, but some men just go and ruin it for the way things have to be done their way. You can just call me Ruby for now. I can take some burns and then I decide when I don't take anymore. I really wasn't meaning to burn you this past weekend. It was just another fling in my eyes. I can guess at the love square I am in right now with you, me, Erin, and Travis. I do not want a foursome. Erin is still an enemy and will always be one. I still am suspicious you could wanting to gangrape me for her sake or that you are into the both of us. Travis? I still don't know him well enough and your present luck is that it is still easier to be easy with you than it is with him......................... I really do hate the way I have to be so straight forward, but I also hate the way I feel you keep threatening my overall will to live and my sexual will to live with either lies or exploits.......Maybe you were just on a mission to show me some gossip with how some connections are made with some people. Do you really see me as a step-parent Edward? Who is my Bruce? Maybe that is why they called you a teenager or saved you from being murdered by speaking a possible X-rated truth. I really don't want to know. I don't care to know about the Kardashian's at all. ......... How can we end this on a good note Edward? It can't be completely good because of the mean control freak you are or an intentional destroyer you want to be. There is a difference and I can't tell which one you are. You can call me Ruby for now.

Some eyes on Me

And I am feeling a little more suffocated. If there were someone to give into, it is impossible to give in. I wouldn't know how to give into someone if I were suppose to. Tom, I am taking another hint from you. Nothing to say about it. other secrets I keep......hmmmmmm....... I think someone is getting a little more aggressive on me, but not sure if he gets they way he is impossible at this point. Walls are closing in in ways that don't make sense. Maybe he is just being fun and games or maybe he is seriously angry and vulgar. He is just too impossible. I am a cat up in a tree.