As the Sarah Turns: Feeling so Squeezed

The walls are closing in in a certain way, and I feel I can hardly breathe........Hmmm. I'll call you LB this time........... It isn't that I don't want LB. I just don't understand him. I think he is clearing some arbitrage up with me, but he still has me blind-sided with some things. I feel he wants to impossibly pigeon-hole me in a way where I can't win: the job, or him (possibly where I may not have him and he wants to rig me out). Sometimes, he makes me feel like I could be his Roxanne, but I'm not entirely convinced on that. I feel squeezed on both ends where it is impossible/acceptable/unacceptable to just play each other with different people: we are both players..... LB isn't an easy man to understand. He was making it hard to breathe and talk anyway. I don't know why we haven't actually spoken to each other and get real with each other. It is a game of distance.....I could go with my gut with some things I see already. But, is it that I should see it that way, or just see it for face value? Are we playfully and kindly playing a game of matador, or is there something about you, LB that I should catch on to? ................ Not everything I do is made to assume or read into. Some songs could be questioned but not taken too seriously. I'm guessing that everyone is in their own house of reps in one way or another in this instance. ............. I'm really not sold on anyone. I guess I could see myself as a player, flirt and someone who has interest.