On my Back

Hey Justin D. I know you're around in some way or another... While I think I may have hurt you in one way with One Republic, I'm upset that you think I hurt you by denying your existence. Besides being upset at that, I feel a present possible betrayal. I know I have kept you betrayed pretty much the whole time. But, if I could think of a better way of wording it, I made the choice of Olga: I never made any effort to try to get you in my life. I ignored you. I lived in my own independence and my own little world. I kept anyone's dominance and ways of labeling or defining me denied. I didn't deny your existence and YES THERE IS A DIFFERENCE BETWEEN IGNORING SOMEONE AND DENYING THEIR EXISTENCE. My walls have been up for a long time and they are starting to crash down and I'm not sure the way you are going to be charging through. I am giving you the personal credit of me being terrified of YOU. I'm starting to notice more in the TV world. (I really don't watch much TV)... I am now going to plan on watching the "Forever," show. I'm not sure what to expect. I'm not sure how much of a truth it is. You are the one who needs to identify yourself. Until then I've got you on my radar and I am guessing.