I don't get it all

With varieties of acknowledgement and mysteries, I still wonder why some people get focused and attentive to me from time to time on late nights.
It really isn't a surprise or shock anymore, but after some time to reflect and recoup, I feel I have a little more room to breathe and wonder why I am at such a high center of attention? I think it is too late for a lot of things, things I can't say that I either can't numerate or comprehend what I may be too late for. But there are always wonderings about entire history details; my "tv/media evolution." Who is involved, how many are involved, why is my life set up the way it is?

I watched several different shows tonight. I think some people talked too fast or random that there was no serious or eventful message. Other people I was not quite sure who they may identified as who? Johnny Depp? Dan Akyrod?
Dan Akyrod is definitely an out of the blue character that I've heard the name before but I really don't know the guy. The reason it matters is the skeleton Vodka. He is either connected to Jared, Josh, maybe Moscow, Maybe Kimmel? Maybe Sid or even Bob with "Danny Tanner" being on tonight.
Anyway, its obvious that Jared's newest video is circuiting more, and I grow more freaked out by not knowing who is talking to me. It's a big deal in this matter. With some of the news that has already been made a big deal and broadcast in catty ways, its not something I would want another exploit over. I really am numb to exploits but am always wanting the possibility of my life being normal again where I don't feel like every detail is exploited.

Megan's husband really made no comment. I think they may have been possibly trying to prompt or cue him with the skeleton vodka, but he really didn't take any action. He talked some of Desperate Housewives and said there was no serious drama. Somehow, I think he may being catty with it and even bsing over the fact that "everything is ok," and might want to take care of it himself on the DL. Yes, I think Megan Fox is a bitch that I could care less about, but I wouldn't say she is the center of my attention to be on my top hate list.

I think the reason for all of the shuffling and mysterious identities is for me to remain blind to people who are responsible for some tragedy in my life.

It is far being reasonable or right in anyway for me to be the scapegoat of it all. It's messed up in entirety. I don't think I'm always the scapegoat but when it comes to my real life equation none of it adds up or is fair.