Random Thoughts and Drama

This past week and weekend has been tough. Business is sometimes unpredictable in the dancing world and this week was one of those bad weeks. People must be too busy with summer winding down and fall being started. Anyway, although I already hate having to work 4 days in a row, I have no other choice to pick up an extra shift tonight. Although I don't plan on waking up extremely early tomorrow, I am still losing my beauty rest. I'll have to have some extra caffeine which probably is a reason for having so much anxiety and insomnia. I'm so excited for vacation. It has been YEARS since I have been to the beach. I was lucky to have been able to treat myself to my Canadian vacation a few months ago. The road trip with Mitzi is going to be an interesting one. It will be a little over 5 hours. I'm not sure how well my 3 year old will handle it. I did get my own beach cd burned. I love a fresh burned cd. I'm excited for the crafting season this year too. I wish I had more projects accomplished, but I still have a good number under my belt. lol. whatever expression I could say it. ............. Travel and Leisure. skipped a few articles, but some I just had to read. I don't know if Mike from WVU is seriously making a serious pass at me, or someone is dolling us around. I found out that he is one of my "Toronto" men. Ha! lol Awe, he is sweet if he is being around to support me in some ways. We haven't really kept in touch in literal ways since the fling a few months back. He is still on my good side......... Playing on...David Duchovny. He is a random surprise. I don't know where he came from. I don't really know what to say. Is he seriously being very serious with me? What did I do to get his attention or interest? Why does he want me? If he really is that serious and really loves me that much, what did I do to win him? Do I really have him won effortlessly? Maybe he has a few tactics to just want to get in my panties. lol. I don't know. He is a lot to look up. I never realized how many movies and TV shows he was in. He is also a musician. More famous than I realized. .... so much going on and so much on my mind I may have forgotten to bring something up. My mind is full and full of questions and curiosity. ...getting ready soon to get to work. Hopefully tonight will be much better and make up for the crappy week........

Waiting Out or Don Draper no chance despair?

I continue on in wanting to find out more about you. I'm a little angry at how things go and the way it sometimes seems that storylines are too made up or just far out. I know I sometimes get emotionally carried away myself sometimes whether or not it is fair to the other person of interest that I'm interested in. However, I am usually not the one who makes up a lot of stories. I always do everything and anything I can to communicate. (I guess so in most cases. I can be secretive). A prime example of someone making me up: Forgetting Sarah Marshall. I thought it was funny, but I had a little anger. Did I really have 2 boyfriends who seriously cared and gave themselves that much of a real life credit? I never even knew I had a boyfriend. While I still feel on the bottom with you, and you having questionable extents of credibility with Ben Affleck, and possibly Scott Disick, are you that emotionally carried away? Did you see us in a relationship, already having me, and everything is already ruined? Whatever Steve. It just isn't fair. I may have let you down in the past because I wasn't awake to you enough, nor smart enough to catch onto you to be more interested and pay more attention. I know I'm not completely understanding your tangible silence or intangible talk....... Maybe you are waiting for me to watch more of your movies. Maybe I really have no chance at all. Maybe you are my personalized Don Draper, and I am your personalized Megan and I have a chance. While I can't make myself seriously believe anything, I care to care. And no, Chance Chapman is not another person I am meaning to talk to when I talk to you. I am only looking at you right now Steve.