Waiting Out or Don Draper no chance despair?

I continue on in wanting to find out more about you. I'm a little angry at how things go and the way it sometimes seems that storylines are too made up or just far out. I know I sometimes get emotionally carried away myself sometimes whether or not it is fair to the other person of interest that I'm interested in. However, I am usually not the one who makes up a lot of stories. I always do everything and anything I can to communicate. (I guess so in most cases. I can be secretive). A prime example of someone making me up: Forgetting Sarah Marshall. I thought it was funny, but I had a little anger. Did I really have 2 boyfriends who seriously cared and gave themselves that much of a real life credit? I never even knew I had a boyfriend. While I still feel on the bottom with you, and you having questionable extents of credibility with Ben Affleck, and possibly Scott Disick, are you that emotionally carried away? Did you see us in a relationship, already having me, and everything is already ruined? Whatever Steve. It just isn't fair. I may have let you down in the past because I wasn't awake to you enough, nor smart enough to catch onto you to be more interested and pay more attention. I know I'm not completely understanding your tangible silence or intangible talk....... Maybe you are waiting for me to watch more of your movies. Maybe I really have no chance at all. Maybe you are my personalized Don Draper, and I am your personalized Megan and I have a chance. While I can't make myself seriously believe anything, I care to care. And no, Chance Chapman is not another person I am meaning to talk to when I talk to you. I am only looking at you right now Steve.