Guessing in the Dark

Something is going on with someone or some people. There is a rage I can't guess out. While Tom may be coming off as a "hero," I'm not trusting anything. Tom and Jon are my 2 main suspects. It looks as if someone else is the prime target of a suspect, but he is very much of a stranger that I think could be arbitraged as Chris Z. Jim, Bob, and Chris Z are probably included in what is going on too. The last time the electric went out; it was Jon who was looming as the death threat and terrorist. Jon was always too impossible and there is no way out of Jon on my end. I have no apology in regards to what I said against his ignorances and totalitarianism. I had my own ugly talk that I'm not sorry for. Whether or not he will admit it enough, Jon knows he never won with me and never will. I guess I can only wait on how many more of whatever my days are numbered...... When looking at you; it is possible to have some suspicion, but I'm not sold on believing you are my bad guy. If you are being evil; I have a difficult time in believing in your evilness. I don't think you have AIDS. I think Tom and Jon do and passing on their disease is their death threat. Maybe Jim, Bob, and Chris conspire to bring Jon and Tom on me more. I'm pretty lost with whatever is going on in the dark. .......... I'm glad to see more positive signs from you in the media. I'm glad you smile. It takes away most suspicion of you being a cheater. I'm still stressed and have some doubt where you are cheating and aren't planning on being done with cheating. What if you do value one more or pay another more than me? Are you trying to pull the topic of prostitution and "what is love" back on me? I'm just strictly talking being a stripper and when a cheat looks like a cheat. You gave signs and sought back after me again, but YOU TELL ME whether or not I am being naïve that you value and want me the most and are done with cheating. Being naïve really isn't something I want to think about. I want to get over it and just be happily won with you. There is still some wonder and doubt. I can only keep taking each day as it comes. I will be mad if you continue to lead me on with no point. I'm sold on believing you want me and want me to want you.