How much ever of a real chance I have

Where do I start? I'll have to start with a "no" I know it is only defined as mind sex and there is not much of a choice in mind sex either. What is the point in saying "no" really?...... Travis, I see the deadgiveaway of the pre-resistant I am. You're not classified as a Jackass entirely. You see no problem with being "the ringmaster" or the existence of ring "dogs." In the most literal sense; we are not entirely on the same page. If anything, I take a good look at you to assume you are a swinger, and take off running that much more. I already feel in trouble with some people and I don't want to get anymore deeper into a swinging scenario. You're officially married, and while David is single, I would be jumping from one problem to the other. So what about all of the titles of relationship status and all of the other rules? Why control your lust or emotions over a real said title? BECAUSE I DO AND I DO PREFER TO PLAY IT SAFE. Yes, my feathers are very ruffled. Maybe I could be too lost in another arbitrage with you and David where you are supposed to be representing David, but I just can't assume it like that. Maybe I do have to accept a compliment from David that I could be one of his best dirty secrets and you want some of it. You also look a little like Jim, and this is not a good thing. If you were supposed to be the local Travis, Travis would have represented himself, unless he is a hardcore capitalist prostituted swinger who is very carefree about being a swinger and "sharing the wealth." So, I ran my mouth a little with Mr. Barilla in living a life of hard oppression. Cheap, weak talk. So maybe you hear me scream and maybe you want to "be a good Samaritan" against David. You're a married man and it is going from one problem to another. I may not be helping myself away from you with the deadgiveaway of a resistant and polar opposite of a woman I am. You may be the typical guy who will take my bitch slap as something to sacrifice and turn on me with his own arrogance and ego with: "it's not that I even want you that much," and I'm the over assumptive one. What I see is what I get, and as much as a turn on you are and the way you have a literally undeniable life to brag about; NO. I don't want to make my own personal "As the Sarah Turns," any more dangerous than it already is.

short current chat

David, I'm seeing a lot of domestic ~you and me together~ signs today and I'm not liking all of the silences, gaps, and the way things seem to be typically laid off. You may eventually answer some questions, but I'm still not liking the looks of things. Urban Dictionary is my biggest problem. If spwl came from you, the other message REALLY must have come from you. THE FIRST TIME IT CAME FROM A DAVE, IT WAS OVER STACY AND DURING A SPAT AND SEPARATION OF US. YOU THREATENED MY LIFE FOR THAT LOW LIFE RAPACIOUS SHITBAG VAIN CARCASS. HOWEVER I BECAME YOUR MAIN THING I DON'T KNOW BECAUSE YOU WERE NEVER CLEAR OR VISIBLE ENOUGH FOR ME TO UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH YOU BETRAYED ME IN THAT INSTANCE. PRESENTLY, it looks like you have high suspicions of Shawn Shaffer. He could be looking out for me BUT WHAT ON EARTH WERE YOU THINKING WHEN YOU THREATENED THE LIFE OF MY DAUGHTER? YOU ARE SO LOW. YOU KNOW YOUR FASCISM IS PREJUDICES ARE UNFAIR. YOU'RE STILL NOT LETTING ME IN TO WHATEVER THE FUCK YOUR REDS ARE. YOU REALLY SEEM TO BE ON TOP OF ME, STOCKHOLMING, AND BEING POSSESSIVE OF ME RIGHT NOW. If there is anything I am most suspicious of right now is your fascist prostitution and you wanting to gang up on and use me for yourself. It's like I can't believe in any love at all and you are out for your own fascist jealousy and SABOTAGE. I know you're still red, and other than that, I'm not going to move another muscle. I submit to you because of your reds and violence. I haven't caught up with Dale in the media yet (I did threaten Earnhardts name HA! ) but you need to think more ABOUT WHAT IS IN A REAL WIN. YOU NEED TO THINK MORE OF THE GADAFFI CONCEPT AND WHATEVER WIN YOU THINK IS IN LIES TOO. While I do believe in my own sense of supremacy I GET THAT IT HAS NO EFFECT ON YOU. I'm so far from my weapon.

Running around blind

I'm still not your fool at heart right now..... Whatever else you could be trying to say isn't clear enough. ... The deal is you want me to lose weight and be skinny for you? Another juggernaut smack. You're making me stay hooked to you and I'm in a lot of pain. You're being a mean player and I don't think we could ever make a relationship out of what we are. I would assume that you have a thing for Gillian anyway. You look like you are breaking a sweat for her and have feelings for her. I know you have denied her a couple of times in the media. Is it that you are reacting in your own jealousy? Do you feel that I have cheated on you more than you ever cheated on me? It hurts so much that you continue to play some of the same games and you just don't want to let me go. If I owed you an apology in cheating and do have something to make up to you, it is something I could have done at one time. But, when you get your revenge and continue on in the cheating game, you make it impossible for me to apologize and make it up to you. The juggernaut you are scars me so deeply. You make things worse where I feel I could never apologize. When you make me feel tricked and fooled enough, I have a great hesitance in having an apology and playing the fool as if things could ever change...I have nothing but the same answers and being forced to be and stay in an open relationship is too much for me to emotionally handle. You're so mean to keep me hooked to you. I hate whatever game we're in. I have no idea where you want to go or where you are going with me. You know you still have me in some ways and can make me break a sweat and have emotional feelings for you, but I know I am consciously making the choice to not be your fool and believe in you. I don't know what you want or whatever else it is that you want to get at. I am in pain.

Hey Valentine

I don't get you and I'm sorry that I don't get you. I'm too tired and weak right now. I really find it doubtful that I have cheated on you more than you have cheated on me. You probably still have a couple of women your keeping played and strung along with me. I don't like some of your present signs with your associations. Are you really crying for me and mad for me? You look like you have a lot of mixed emotions. While I'm weak, I'm still in my own sadness because even if I may have a piece of you, I feel strung along. I feel like you want to continue to be unfairly possessive of me and be the same pattern of so many other men. It's like your mad and want to punish me and make me your slave at the same time of you possibly be wanting to protect me of something else... I can understand so much but I feel so love sick. I'm sorry if I cheated on you and let you down more than you did with me, but I have a feeling you're more of a bad guy and probable betrayer than I am. Maybe in your mixed feelings you have resentment and regret of the bad guy you were against me, but I am still weak, confused, and that I don't understand you and what it is you want. You're not the first guy who has forced me to stay stuck on him and refuse to let me get over him. You make me feel so love sick. I know there is a part of me that isn't over you yet, but if you're not my match of a man, I need you to stop refusing to let me get over you.