mystery or cruel games?

I'd rather be seduced back into mystery... I have an idea of where this could go and I am really not liking the looks of it. I don't want to fall out of love with you. I don't want to lose interest. And, I don't like being lied to either. I don't want Jon back; or forced to be handed back to him. He is too killer, rapist, and violent. I believe you have the potential to be violent. If anything now, you seem a little more boyish. Perhaps rejecting. Maybe you aren't in any kind of popularity or fascist game. Maybe you are just turning up the heat of possibly being seriously serious. Maybe with the pool scene, it is all a matter of math competition. Skills. or bragging of corruption. How dare I be a human. Maybe you didn't like the idea of me liking your idea so much and you have your own way of taking the love out of it. Maybe I read you the wrong way and you have nothing but the most hateful of intentions. No Tom, no. Not sure of the arbitrage going on with Stacy and possibly another one of your foodstamps of me. I don't care if Stacy likes me, or that we may possibly and eventually have something in common. No, I don't identify myself as an official you-know-what either. I really do have my own way of seeing it as love, and I don't care if I get made fun of. Of course, I would care if I were to be made fun of by you. I don't care how you number me either. I'm still too good to be numbered to have a comparable number to Stacy. I don't believe in being a number much either. I've already written some blogs in cheer for Snowflake power. There are no snowflakes that have the exact same fractals. While you're playing unsafe with my heart anyway, I'll just keep playing dangerous anyway. I am no one's subject. While I believe I could be the most gun-shy or kill-shy person, I would just let the Calvin's in my life be murdered. I havn't forgotten about Stacy's will to murder me either. I think she is a dumb bitch for giving herself the entitlement to murder me for whatever or any reason. I didn't even watch the TV episodes. Who was Stacy to ever judge me or me to be ever subjected to her judgement? Tom, please don't lose me. Please don't make me fall out of love with you.