Don't know how to play it safe

Hi James. You want to be my friend, don't you? Although you have scored some points with me, you also gave me reasons to run from you. Arbitrage arbitrage arbitrage. I think you know the main man that I'm presently attracted to. I still want him. BUT I don't know how to play it safe. He does have a long term girlfriend who he has brought up and seems to stick with. Therefore, it should be fair to continue to say that there are other fish in the sea and to share whatever and anything I would want to share with someone. Besides the aspect of that fairness, is another aspect of unfairness. Silent games, secrets, and the continued unexplained mystery of messages and visuals in one's mind and head. Questionable telepathy. There is no fairness or safety in it. The devil's got a gun in my mind alright. I had such a nightmare the other night and I'm so upset about it. Although it was just a dream, I have never felt so off guard and caught by surprise. It was a death threat of what would happen if I did get seduced by him. I don't feel safe in either giving in to him or not giving in to him and the possible way the arbitrage would carry on and pass the buck to you. He does seem like he wants to be on my good side, and the sign with you today is another thing to convince me that he wants to be on my good side, but I feel the threat is still there and I don't know why. That is the main thing: I don't know why. I could get on my knees and cry for my life, but what if he or someone else would twist it to say that I'm saying I'm sorry for something I'll never be sorry for? I'm lost with him. I don't want to be deceived or lied about. .................. McDonalds. Do you or him think all talk is cheap or your talk is cheap or that it is just another thing taken out of context? I don't mind hearing your 2 cents out of what you thought about with the humility of working at McDonalds with your status. In some ways I can agree with what you are trying to say, and in another way, I disagree. Some people do work to earn better or other skills and qualifications in whatever field and shouldn't feel inhibited in pursuing their interests. In my personal life, my main objective is directed more at something else. I know people do have prejudices and jealousies. I know the way I was violently treated by some people and management. Yes, I am too good to be: treated like a dog, intentionally over-under-estimated and expected to prove myself in the worst way, made to be a subjected victim to another persons lie's, rumors, or will to control my life. People always crossed the line with socialism where it was never relevant to the job to begin with. I never know who anyone ever thought they were to want to control me, judge me, or threaten my everyday life and the choices that I made as a person. People were never right to disrespect me, dog me, and treat me the way they treated me. YES I AM ABOVE ALL OF THE ABOVE. .......... People can try to switch subjects or change the agenda all they want, but there is a truth that will still always be there. I guess I'm a little more satisfied when people dodge or run rather than insist they were right to dog me, but it doesn't change the history that has already been made. ............ I'm not completely sure what to think of you James. I am going to make myself watch "The Interview," but it really isn't something I've been looking forward to. Besides that, you and you know who have me curious. I don't want a threesome or orgy.